I am fluid; that the easiest way I can describe myself. I go with the flow and allow lessons, experience, time, love, wisdom, prayer and conviction to navigate my path. I am part of the generation, born in the 80s, raised in the 90s, discovering and finding your footing in the 00s and actualising and manifesting in the 2020s!
Growing up, I had a plan, I loved school and was good with my grades so I figured that I would be among the top candidates after primary school in the newspapers. I would then go to the top Kenyan national schools, get to “Nairobi University”, get a Masters abroad, be married, and build a nice house and family by 30.
Well, none of that happened! Life faced me with lower grades than I anticipated for my secondary school admission. I ended up in a secondary school and university far from the outskirts of Nairobi. I still don’t have a Masters or a ring, yet! But, life has turned out okay.
Through twists, turns and events my life has panned well as a life that is about discovering purpose and meaning. Over the years, I have learnt to count my blessings. My education path took me to places where my character and resolve were forged with invaluable life lessons. Though I haven’t yet got my Masters, life lessons in the school of life have been valuable in my relational and career journey. Continually, I am leaning to strip myself of the ego, self -centeredness, fear and negative behavioural patterns.
How do you ask? I have learned to do things afraid. My successes and failings are for the greater good and I shouldn’t dwell on them too much. I have leaned on faith for impossible situations. I have outgrown and forgiven myself of relations that were of no value. I have learnt the importance of healing through traumatic circumstances in order to be whole. I also allow myself to fail and make mistakes. I allow myself to be gracious to myself in order to be gracious and empathetic to others. I am learning, when I judge or dismiss someone harshly, there is an area of my life I am blind to and need feedback. I am learning to appreciate the value of a smile, a good morning, a kind remark, a gentle hug, a compliment and how it makes a difference in a life. I am disapproving of the importance of anger, malice, gossip, envy and just being mean, they are a waste of time. They take too much space and deny us opportunities to experience life in full. I am learning to go with the flow and be fluid. I am fluid.